Surviving the Circus

hey there

2005-07-09T01:34:19Z

wow! i dont even remember the last time i updated! i think i was still in school! meh... oh well. i dont really have much to write about other than I HATE DR.'S! the end!
love bailey

sry

2005-05-20T02:28:43Z

ok. so...its been a while. like, 3 months. yeah. lots happened. umm... nothing incredibly awsome. so lifes little details. still single. yeah. that anout sums it up. lol that ( btw) is the "what ever" face. that is me at the moment. i find my-self to be... feeling -less. if that makes sense. its sad kinda. then again, i suppose it could be worse, couldnt it? i could be depressed. at least im not that. in case u cant tell, im over tired. (note the lack of feeling) i like boys. just a side note to any of u reading this. i realy REALY like boys. ok. umm...the end. song of the moment time. the first is amusing and the second it the BEST sex song ever!

Erection: the faint

It's a scene from the movie.
It's an isle at the store.
It's the view of a canyon.
The sound of a sword.

It's an orchard peaches.
Your wife in the shower.
While you wait for appointments.
Or as you walk through the park.

Oh. uh oh. Erection.

You know it's not only love dear.
That can flip the switch up.
You know it probably should be.
Maybe god fucked it up.

Oh uh oh. Erection.

It boiled up like a tower.
A monument in the park.
It's the cock of a rifle.
A memory in the dark.

You tried to keep it a secret.
But now the world's gonna know.
You tried for perfection.

But then oh uh oh. erection.
oh uh oh. erection.

"Sic Transit Gloria...Glory Fades"
brand new:

Keep the noise low.
She doesn't wanna blow it.
Shaking head to toe
while your left hand does "the show me around."
Quickens your heartbeat.
It beats me straight into the ground.

You don't recover from a night like this.
A victim, still lying in bed, completely motionless.
A hand moves in the dark to a zipper.
Hear a boy bracing tight against sheets
barely whisper, "This is so messed up."

Upon arrival the guests had all stared.
Dripping wet and clearly depressed,
he'd headed straight for the stairs.
No longer cool, but a boy in a stitch,
unprepared for a life full of lies and failing relationships.

(Up the stairs: the station where
the act becomes the art of growing up.)

He keeps his hands low.
He doesn't wanna blow it.
He's wet from head to toe and
his eyes give her the up and the down.
His stomach turns and he thinks of throwing up.
But the body on the bed beckons forward
and he starts growing up.

The fever, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe
you weren't too hard to sell.
Die young and save yourself.
The tickle, the taste of...
It used to be the reason I breathed
but now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.

She hits the lights.
This doesn't seem quite fair.
Despite everything he learned from his friends,
he doesn't feel so prepared.
She's breathing quiet and smooth.
He's gasping for air.
"This is the first and last time," he says.
She fakes a smile and presses her hips into his.
He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides.
He's holding back from telling her
exactly what it really feels like.

He is the lamb, she is the slaughter.
She's moving way too fast and all he wanted was to hold her.
Nothing that he tells her is really having an effect.
He whispers that he loves her,
but she's probably only looking for...

(Up the stairs: the station where
the act becomes the art of growing up.)

So much more than he could ever give.
A life free of lies and a meaningful relationship.
He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides.
He waits for it to end
and for the aching in his guts to subside.

The fever, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe
you weren't too hard to sell.
Die young and save yourself.
The tickle, the taste of...
It used to be the reason I breathed
but now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.

Up the stairs: the station where
the act becomes the art of growing up.

The fever, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe
you weren't too hard to sell.
Die young and save yourself.
The tickle, the taste of...
It used to be the reason I breathed
but now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.

men

2005-04-02T15:35:54Z

I’m sending this letter out as a warning to all girls out there. The other day I was in an elevator in a hospital, and in come these two guys. They keep smiling at me and trying to pick me up. It was disgusting! I couldn’t believe it. They were such smug ass holes! Anyway, I got a link to a picture of them from the police below so you can all be on guard. Watch out for these two! Honestly! Some guys just think that they are Gods gift to women!

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hey all

2005-03-09T22:11:10Z

whats up every one? notta lotta here. sry i havent been on lately. just havent gotten around to it. so, im alive. and confused but im not gonna go into that. i got to spend the whole weekend last weekend w/ my favorite sister (mostly cuz shes my only) who still owes me my money! thats right! i didnt forget! so yeah. im alive. and i promiced i would say somthing so here. i talked to the most aggrivating person in the world yesterday. i cant stand Doug! o my goodness. ok. then end. told you i would say something! jerk!
love ya all~*bailey*~

yeah

2005-02-16T23:31:48Z

hidee-ho neighbor.(sp) shut up. i cant spell. i know. im still sleepy. had a blast at camp though! so much fun! loved it! but sadly doug wasnt there! oh well. i miss him. im so lame. i do though. *sad face* oh well. now im leaving you. bye bye

what the hey?!?!

2005-01-22T04:13:56Z

ok. dont freak ot rich (or n e one else who reads this). i drempt i went to turnabout w/ rich. also, andy was there and my imaginations mr/ mulder.(sp.?) why? i havent the foggiest idea. it kinda freaked me out. dreaming about going to a dance w/ ur sisters 20 year old boy friend is odd....a little....bit more than alot! yeah. oh well. sick

yeah

2005-01-12T23:27:05Z

Congratulations! You are Susan Mayer, the divorcee
and single mom who will go to extraordinary
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quizzee

2005-01-12T23:17:34Z

Aphrodite/Eros

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yeah.

2005-01-11T23:45:55Z

so....i was just told by a rather reliable sourse that this guy i know (who is gay) said that if he had to be with a girl, it would be me. so i talked to him today and he just laughed. im so confused. he likes men. not girls. what? but its opk. i love him tho so its ok. but my friend lea likes him. (she knows) so if i tell her, shell be super pissed. i kinda wanna though. is that bad of me? meh. do i care? not really. well. im tired. later. bay

camp

2005-01-01T05:50:35Z

hey guys. i just got back from camp. once again it was amazing! it was a bit smaller though. i missed some people. but it went really well! im so tired! happy new year. im goin to bed! baliey

menh

2004-12-08T15:57:01Z

hey there. im realy tired. yeah. thats it. bye

good

2004-12-07T16:42:50Z

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arggh!

2004-12-07T16:35:36Z

sorry i changed the backround lea but it was making me dizzy. lol. ne way. i have a choir concert which means that im not having cell groups. i dont know if im upset about that or not b/c latly cell groups has really been stressing me out. (sandy, dont read the rest of this) im the only cell leader now and its realy hard. you guys have no idea. its super difficult b/c you have no one else to go off of and no one who knows whats going on. some people know some of it. but there are so many things. i feel like im letting every one down when it comes to cell. relly... in general i feel like im leting alot of people down lately. but loads of people are telling me their problems, which i good. i want that. but then there are 3 who have told me recently that they want to/ have tried to kill themselves. i dont think i can talk to any one else baout it b/c then they wont talk to me any more and im the only person that they are talking to.

also, my brother and i are having issues. ussualy, we have like one day and then we're good. its been 6 weeks i think and it just keeps getting worse. thousands of people are laying things on me walking away and it really frustrating me. im not sleeping at all b/c i go to be thinking about all the things i have to do the next day. then when i finally do fall asleep, its not a good sleep and i wake up every 20 minutes. so im really stressed out and over tired. i dont deal well with things like this. i get my self really sick when stuff like this happens. so im also getting sick (which i cant do b/c butt loads of things are going on that i have to do) and i think im going to pass out. im not evenm kidding. ok... im done.
yeah. ok. bailey. go me.

quiz

2004-12-06T16:27:23Z

You Are a Prophet Soul

You are a gentle soul, with good intentions toward everyone.
Selfless and kind, you have great faith in people.
Sometimes this faith can lead to disappoinment in the long run.
No matter what, you deal with everything in a calm and balanced way.

You are a good interpreter, very sensitive, intuitive, caring, and gentle.
Concerned about the world, you are good at predicting people's feelings.
A seeker of wisdom, you are a life long learner looking for purpose and meaning.
You are a great thinker and communicator, but not necessarily a doer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

hey hey hey

2004-12-06T16:01:09Z

whats shakin loves~
well....im really tired. i think im going to pass out. but thats ok. because i had a pretty good weekend with my mumzee. yeah for mother-daughter bonding time. lol. i think meg is coming home next weekend. im excited. it means my wordrobe just about doubles. yeah. no. im kidding. i love her to.....no....really....i do. i had a realy weird dream w/ her in it last night. it was odd. im going to go to sleep now. nighty night. bailey

me

2004-12-03T18:44:03Z

well....another day down. yesterday i stayed home b/c i was really dizzy and kept falling down the stairs and into the christmas tree and my bed. (its not a small bed.) and i didnt eat much b/c i was really nausiouse. sorry bout the spelling. any way. i still kinda am but mom made me go to school. its better than yesterday. but its still pretty bad. oh well. ill get over it. i got some good news this wednesday. thank you megan! it made my day. tha and mom and i laughing at the service. 4 guys sang we 3 kings and mom leaned over and sadi "3 kings and waht? a sevent boy?" it was so funny. the whole thing. oh well. i love ya all. bailey

ANOTHER! BUT THEIR FUNNY

2004-11-29T16:25:34Z

What Are You Most Likely to Utter During Sex by UMAJohnnie
Name
Sexuality
Age
Most Likely to Say	"It's not that it was bad..."

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i know. another

2004-11-29T16:22:05Z

Your Superhero Persona by couplandesque
Your Name
Superhero Name	The Scotsman
Super Power	Incredible Stamina
Enemy	The Cheating Boyfriend
Mode Of Transportation	City Bus
Weapon	Beer Bottle

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my band

2004-11-29T16:20:04Z

Which Band Should You Be In? by couplandesque
Your Name
Band Name	Weezer
Role	Drummer
Trademark	Mental Problems
Love Interest	Vocalist From Another Band

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ok then

2004-11-29T16:04:25Z

Would anyone want to bang you? by phobia
Name:
Favorite Food:
Wants to Bang you:
This many times:	34

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hey

2004-11-25T03:01:43Z

wow. so happy. so amused with meg right now. she is so funny. she is writing what she calls "phase 3" tge is the phase in which i go out on a double date with meg and rich and doug and i. she has planned what we do, were we go,every thing. its so funny. i swear shes on drugs. she is so cute though.
but....sad news....tommorrow is thanksgiving. most people are happy about this. but i have to spend the day with my family who hates me and have a dinner and tell every one it was great when I DONT EAT IT! argh! i hate this. but it means i get christmas to myself.well...and my family. thats good for me. any way. have to fly.*~BAILEY~*

well.....

2004-11-23T16:29:45Z

So. I was talking to Doug yesterday and i asked him if he read my live journal (b/c meg said he did) and he said somtimes. and then, the little punk sent me the last entry of mine! what a jerk! omgoodness. so i told i liked him and he was laughing at me and so i told him he likes me too. well..... he reads this so he knows what he said. the jerk. "i do?" lol. oh well. meg is perfectly smitten. shes convinced shes half way done with her master plan. she kept running around the house scearming "PHASE 2 IS COMPLETE! PHASE 2 IS COMPLETE." she is such a freak. but i love her.

camp

2004-11-15T16:32:14Z

wow!! it was amazing.i love camp!! and meg, while doug and i r not married,*~SIGH~*, youve got me hooked. i like him. okay?! r u happy!?!?!?!?! darn you and your good taste (at least in way younger men). he so nice though. ok. ill tell u more later.
but for the rest of you. camp was amazing. not that any of you can go any more but i wish u could. u would all have a blast. im sure of it. im so tired now though. im going to go take a nap. night night.

yeah

2004-11-12T16:08:37Z

If you joined a superhero group.. by Uberdude
Username
What kind of powers would you have?
How did you get your powers?
You joined the team because...
The leader of the Team would be..	rmulder
The angsty loner with tons of psychological issues	danelover18
The spunky mascot	skankin_mama
The well intentioned but volitile mad genius	danelover18
The reformed supervillian 'turned-good'	molamola
Your personal arch nemesis	riotinthe_midst
The overwhelmingly evil and powerfull supervillian	megimoo
The pesky fan or reporter	skankin_mama

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CAMP

2004-11-12T16:04:44Z

I get to go to camp today!! Im so excited!! you have no idea. i miss them all so much!! and Becca and Pat r getting baptised! and dougless is going to be there! i havent seen him in ages!! i miss him. but i wont for long cuz ill see hi in a couple hours! im so excited to see every one! you have no... i already said that. yeha. but its true!! ok.. g2g.... bye...im so excited....ok....bye!